Life VS death

life isnt easy (death isnt fair) 

life can be hard no one can say it isnt but its what you do about that which makes a difference, i talk from my view when i say it isnt easy bottling things up, it build up inside and you feel the bottle breaking, you try to tell someone, but you dont know how to say it or they dont listen, thats what happened to me through primary i was the happy,smiling girl who may not of had many friends but the friends i did have were close to me but when high school came all the tables turned, i understood life more and the more i understood the more harsh life felt like it was to me, now i understand theres always going to be someone in a worse situation then me. My world wasnt good but it was about to get worse, on the 26th of may 2013 i lost my beloved uncle to heart failure, my world crashed, the day before (saturday) i had a brill time at my cousins, sun blazing, water fight all day, i come home to then have a fun fight with my sister,i couldnt of been happier.Sunday morning i woke up and back then i loved playing sims 2 etc so im playing on my ps2 to here a loud knock on the door me and my mam are alert and open the door to my cousin (my uncles son), apparently he had been trying to ring us but we never heard the phone ring, his face was white and red around the eyes, you didnt have to be smart to know something was wrong.That was when he broke the news, now for some reason i didnt cry alot that day, it hadnt hit me, my brain didnt allow it to be true, but my mam was in tears he had been married to my her sister for so long it was there ruby anniversay this year, i didnt know what to do i just stayed up stairs but my neighbour helped us through this tough time.I cry more now then i used to because now it goes in to my brain, he used to be a person, he used to be alive, i used to know him and speak to him, but now he's gone, he wasnt even related by blood, just by marrage but it broke our hearts and still does, there isnt one day that i dont think, i wonder what he would of said when he found out i was doing this amazing thing, another thing is that i know so many people know that knew him because he used to be a care taker at a school, id love to know what he say if i asked him whether he remebered this person.i miss him every day but love him every day.                       R.I.P uncle douglas